Ok I know I haven't blogged in a while , but I am going to blog now. I am just in the mood I guess. I have recently realized that no matter how hard you try to get caught up something goes wrong . Just when you think things will get better, either your car goes boom and you need to buy a new one , then shortly after that your husbands car decides it doesn't want to cooperate and it decides to act up.So then you have to check into getting him a new car because we have a new baby coming in about five months and his car will not fit all of them and unfortunately it is not reliable. So we check into that but because he has a trade that is not worth what he owes he has to stay with it unless he decides to get rid of it meaning giving it back then he gets sued for the balance.unless of course he pays the balance and then goes for the car, so now we are at the point where we wander if I have to buy a new car how am I going to pay the rent and how are we going to get groceries. now I know that all these things are not happening to just me there are other people that are struggling and then there are some people who are not. good for them. As far as we are concerned we may be broke and a little behind in our bills. So what do we do we stay cool and calm and do not get mad and take it out on our friends , or or family all we can do is live day by day and paycheck by pay check until we get caught up. Now I am not writing this to ask anyone for help or have anyone feel sorry for me cause we have been in a worse position before and have gotten through it and we will get through this. I have faith in my husband and in myself. I just write it on here to get it off of my chest.
No I will admit freely we are not where we would have wanted to be at this age , we had hoped we have a house , I would have a better job maybe in a lawyers office , or maybe a nurse but I have not gotten that far in my education and thats because I am not sure if I want to add another degree that is worthless and more student loans onto my already existing student loans that I cannot pay. so I settle for a shit job with shit pay and shit hours. I can say though I have a loving husband and some not so grateful kids but they will understand someday why they don't get the fancy things.
well thats all I have to say right now , I am sure I could say more but then I would be having a poor poor pitiful me blog and thats not what I am doing.
No comments:
Post a Comment