bititng your words

Have you ever said you could do something and were so confident that you were the right person for the job and knew you were ... well thats not always true , I have a youngster who I watch , though I knew at the beginning she was a problem and hard to handle, even her dad will agree. I said I can watch her I can handle her... bleep I was wrong , don't get me wrong I will deal with her but she is difficult, I am finding that out. she has an Attention problem most of the world knows it as Add or adhd, which is a very difficult disorder to work with , trust me I know I have a daughter who has add or adhd and she is not easy, now I am not one for medicine and I don't believe  a teacher or child care provider should just say put them on meds and they will be better , I as well as my brother , believe there are other ways. I was in denial when they first told me my daughter had adhd and I should medicate her so she is easier to handle. I through a temper tantrum and said she is just a kid it is her age. it only took me about a year to realize I had to do something. I was told when she was in first grade she had it and I didn't believe it. so I ignored it then the same behavior followed in second and third grade. it was about half-way through her second grade year and I put her on meds, first it was straterra , then that made her groggy and sleepy , then  a year later it was adderol which made her even more hyper , nothing was working. what was I to do the only thing left I had to choose from was the dreaded ritalin, ritalin scares me , it scares my brother, he should know he was on it. anyways my point is I have had it with trying to get this girl to listen to me and focus she cant even sit still for more than ten minutes without getting in to trouble. so I mentioned it to my brother and went of the deep end and begun yelling at me I am not putting her on meds and of course me who does not like confrontation, told him okay then you will find out when she gets into school how difficult she is. so getting to my point I have bit my words when I said I could take care of her , cause I am having a hell of a time , so if anyone has any ideas on how to control an out of control child please let me know.